read my mind.

the beginning of the end

2010-09-09T21:20:00.000-07:00

I'm leaving to london (AHHHH!) in a week and i'm seriously considering reviving this blog, or at least starting a new one about my life abroad with pictures, which i'll use my new camera to take. Or at least, what i thought was my new camera. There's a good chance my dad might have confiscated it indefinitely because i broke the filter lens the first time i brought it out (and ironically did not use).

The past few days have been the most packed in my entire life. Yes, even busier than IB. My last two days (as copied and pasted from my sticky notes on my desktop) :

wed 8/9

driving lesson 9.50am - 11.20am

lit tuition 11.30am - 1.30pm

visa 2.30 - 4pm

make tiramisu for dinner party on friday 4 - 6pm

BRAZIL dinner 7.30pm

thursday 9/9

make and pack sandwich for lunch

driving lesson 9.50-11.30am

driving theory lesson 12.20 - 2pm

chem tuition 4pm - 5.30pm

tennis lesson 6.30pm

zouk (uk pageant) 8.30pm

I am convinced that because I can cram all that into two days, I can make 3 perfectly edible meals for myself when I'm alone in the uk.

2010-05-14T11:05:00.000-07:00

"To have all ifs and buts of life stripped away - to have everything thought out for you every day and minute of your life - prison is the opposite of freedom, and, as such, is almost as liberating."

- Eleanor Rigby, Douglas Coupland

2010-05-10T23:54:00.001-07:00

this is not just a parentheses.

2010-04-15T09:56:00.000-07:00

Apparently jobs are fulfilling. They give you a sense of purpose and they're supposed to fill your life with meaning. But you know what? I only have this period of my life to do whatever I want before I become another cog in the machine of life - university, job, marriage, kids. So I'm going to do whatever the hell I want to do that I will never have the chance or time to do again. I don't need to lug myself awake every morning just to go to some stable, boring job that will "give me a sense of purpose". Okay, I admit it would be nice to have extra money to spend. But is it worth it if I don't have the time to spend it?

Maybe this is all just a way to comfort myself for the fact that I haven't been able to find a part-time job that makes me happy and distracts me from my apparent lack of purpose, but I'm pretty content where I am. I'm learning new things everyday - guitar, yoga, dance class. I finally get to read what I want to read, not what the school wants me to read. The best thing is, if I feel like doing something, I can just do it. No more lines like, "I can't, I have to study" running through my mind or passing through my lips. I have no more excuses. There is only now and if there's something I want to try, now is the time to do it.

2010-03-29T00:28:00.000-07:00

Dwayne: I wish I could just sleep until I was eighteen and skip all this crap-high school and everything-just skip it.
Frank: You know Marcel Proust?
Dwayne: He’s the guy you teach.
Frank: Yeah. French writer. Total loser. Never had a real job. Unrequited love affairs. Gay. Spent 20 years writing a book almost no one reads. But he’s also probably the greatest writer since Shakespeare. Anyway, he uh… he gets down to the end of his life, and he looks back and decides that all those years he suffered, Those were the best years of his life, ’cause they made him who he was. All those years he was happy? You know, total waste. Didn’t learn a thing. So, if you sleep until you’re 18… Ah, think of the suffering you’re gonna miss. I mean high school? High school-those are your prime suffering years. You don’t get better suffering than that.

Now what?

2010-02-09T20:09:00.000-08:00

I know I shouldn't think that my life is on hold right now, and that I'm just waiting for it to start moving again. I should be living in the now, but it's so hard when there's nothing to do because everything you want to do just isn't happening the way you imagined it.

Here's the half of my post-IB list that I haven't completed, compiled when I was drowning in the demoralization of facing ib final exams.

list of things to do after IB

4. get a job teaching literature

5. lose weight

9. photography

11. bake/cook

12. dance lessons

Typed on a yellow sticky note, it's been stuck on my desktop for the longest time. I delete everything I've completed, hence the random numbering, and now I have 5 things left to finish or get started on. Dance lessons start in march, tutoring when the agencies get back to me and losing the weight is an ongoing process (though it doesn't actually seem to go anywhere). Til then, I'm here on my laptop watching my crime shows, reading random novels I find lying around the house and watching my friends abandon their lives for NS one by one.

2010-01-05T08:10:00.000-08:00

"I've met God across his long walnut desk with his diplomas hanging on the wall behind him, and God asks me, "Why?" Why did I cause so much pain? Didn't I realize that each of us is a sacred, unique snowflake of special unique specialness? Can't I see how we're all manifestations of love? I look at God behind his desk, taking notes on a pad, but God's got this all wrong. We are not special. We are not crap or trash, either. We just are. We just are, and what happens just happens. And God says, "No, that's not right." Yeah. Well. Whatever. You can't teach God anything."

- Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club

2010-01-03T04:08:00.001-08:00

sometimes the hardest thing to do

is to do nothing at all.

2009-09-06T02:56:00.000-07:00

this made me go awwwww

2009-09-02T08:51:00.000-07:00

“The saddest kind of sad is the sad that tries not to be sad. You know, when Sad tries to bite its lip and not cry and smile and go, “No, I’m happy for you”? That’s when it’s really sad.”
— John Mayer

2009-08-30T07:52:00.001-07:00

“What defines a best friend? What are the requirements to be a good best friend? How many hours a week does it entail? Stupid questions that have no answers. A best friend is not defined by how many times they talk on the phone, or how many hours they hang out together. It is not defined by how many sleepovers they gossip at, or how many inside jokes they have. There are no requirements or laws that state that a good best friend must hang out with them every weekend, or tell each other every little detail. A best friend is a matter of opinion. It is the person who has been there for you through everything, not just through the fun things, or the little things. It is the person that you call when you are at your absolute worst, it is the person who saves you when you didn’t even notice that you needed saving, mostly it is the person who accepts you for who you are, and the person that you are becoming”

2009-08-14T20:09:00.001-07:00

everyone's going through it, so suck it up and don't you dare break down.

2009-08-12T03:27:00.000-07:00

People are getting lazier and lazier. We started out with blogs - xanga, blogspot, wordpress. Our thoughts and feelings were actually written in articulate sentences and yes, even paragraphs. Then facebook comes along and we're happily uploading pictures and videos and commenting on everyone else's lives. Suddenly twitter pops up with its big blank box and 139 word limit. All we need to do is type one liners and press enter. What next? Everybody is migrating to tumblr - ah, the ease of the "reblog" button. No brain power or personality input required at all. Although, that's not to say I'm an exception to the laze craze. I completely approve of the convenience it brings.

Byebye blogspot. Hello tumblr :)

2009-07-21T07:59:00.000-07:00

Draco on the acoustic!

british? tick.
kickass guitar player? tick.

hello mr perfect.

2009-07-19T06:14:00.000-07:00

SEVENTEENTH AUGUST.

TWENTY EIGHT DAYS.

THIRTY EIGHT POINTS.

LSELSELSELSELSELSE.

Harry Potter and the HBP

2009-07-17T19:20:00.001-07:00

I think the movie was more of a glimpse into the lives of the characters than a real movie. There was no build up to the climax and no real resolution. Like the previous movie, it told no story. I don't deny that it was entertaining to watch the growth of Ron and Hermoine's potential love life, but they took out too many key scenes from the book to let the story flow. And is it just me, or is it very strange to see Harry attempting to go on a date with a waitress? Somehow it doesn't fit into my impression of Harry.

On a brighter note, Luna Lovegood undeniably remains the most eccentric and interesting character. Her quirkiness is amusing in an endearing way. I think everybody secretly wants to be Luna. She's exactly who she wants to be and she doesn't give a damn what everyone else thinks.

high on tea

2009-07-11T05:25:00.001-07:00

Now that I think about it, it was probably all the tea we drank last night.

I don't care if it's cliche,

2009-07-05T09:03:00.001-07:00

this show makes me sappy.

2009-07-03T19:37:00.000-07:00

What if after doing everything right, I didn't do enough?

2009-06-23T00:54:00.000-07:00

clear as a koi pond (:

2009-06-19T23:25:00.000-07:00

Surrey, by river where we had our lunch.

Coming back from England is like waking up from a dream

and realizing that it was all real.

tea & scones, anyone?

2009-06-19T05:41:00.000-07:00

pictures I took are on facebook!

2009-06-18T09:50:00.000-07:00

sometimes I wish I was her.

2009-06-13T22:51:00.000-07:00

"Sometimes I get this feeling; this feeling of jumping off the edge of a roof. It’s what I feel like all the time with the things I do. I know I shouldn’t but I can’t help it. It’s like being on the edge of the roof all the time.”

-Phoebe, Phoebe in Wonderland

How come every time you come around...

2009-06-13T01:00:00.000-07:00

hello from London! Here's what I've been doing in pictures:

Watched Wicked last night :)

Visiting the Body Space Motion Exhibition at Tate Modern

We met two friendly workers who insisted that we take pictures of them. (We asked them for directions first)

South Kensington where we're staying

lazy mondays

2009-06-08T03:49:00.000-07:00

swim tanning , milk tea ice-cream & taboo

Shaun Smith Should've Won

2009-05-31T02:29:00.000-07:00

2009-05-23T09:43:00.000-07:00

carmen cinnamon! this is for you.

2009-05-18T06:23:00.000-07:00

I have this temptation to label all the snacks in my kitchen with huge, bold, black block letters.

Cookies : TRANS FAT.

Chocolate : DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT.

Easy Cheese : GO FOR PEANUT BUTTER.

Yoghurt : ICE-CREAM SUCKS. EAT ME.

and at Jose's request -

Veggies : FIBRE = EAT LESS = LESS FAT :)

Maybe then it'd be easier to avoid it all.

grey's anatomy season finale :(

2009-05-15T07:38:00.000-07:00

“did you say it? I love you. I don’t ever want to live without you. You changed my life. Did you say it? Make a plan, set a goal, work toward it. But every now and then, look around, drink it in, because this is it. It might all be gone tomorrow.”

- Meredith Grey

entangled

2009-05-10T00:26:00.003-07:00

We're all moving. Shifting from old to new, from new back to old. I can feel the thread holding us together severing, reconnecting, finding new people to bind to.

Parties catalyze drama. Everything that school forbids us to do bubbles to the surface in parties, in gatherings, where everyone thinks nobody's watching. The drama erupts, and the threads unravel and come together again, tangled now in completely different ways.

2009-05-04T07:51:00.000-07:00

tom sturridge!

2009-05-02T08:48:00.000-07:00

aww. how cute is it that tom sturridge and robert pattinson are best friends.

Yes, this is what I do when I have three free days and no homework to do :)

For the birthday boys!

2009-04-30T07:08:00.000-07:00

Eskor's birthday lunch this afternoon was one of the best meals I've had in some time. I really miss just hanging out at a quiet restaurant and talking with a couple of good friends. I spent the entire 4-day week in a brain-dead, dazed state, struggling to muster enough energy to get through the day. But now, finally, it feels like I'm getting a piece of my life back.

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY ESKOR!

I haven't blogged in quite awhile, so here are all the happy birthdays that have accumulated over the past weeks.

For yesterday,

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY ERNEST!

And for April 25th and 11th,

HAPPY 18TH BITRHDAY IAN AND JOSE!

you guys make me smile.

2009-04-16T02:57:00.000-07:00

please, please tell me once IOC, econs commentary and TOK presentation are over, there will be no more assignments. I'm dying.

On a lighter note, here's something Sid and I came up with in creative writing.

Guess who.

Mary and Siddharth

Creative Writing

Impersonations

Wha lao. They coming ready. so fast ah. Only 10 now. tsk. I hate this boy he always pay so much, make me give him $50 change. Hai ya. One curry puff. One cur- aiyah, where’s the curry puff? and a lemon barley, waa, so organic. how much, ah?.. uh.. one curry puff 1 dollar and.. ah yealemon barley, wait lemmi ask jia wei. “Jia wei ah, How much is bottle drink? Oh yeah it’s $1.30. OK so it’s $2.30.” wa so tiring.

Wah, who does this kid think he is, speak so chim. What “One Cahbohnated drink” They think they so high class. Ai yoh now this indian come. He thinks he knows chinese. Anyhow talk one...What time now? Ai yah, only 10.10. Who’s next? Tsk. This girl. Always asking me to toast the sandwich. Eat so much. No wonder she always come here try to buy organic food. apple one, papaya one, think it will help you lose weight ah? I been trying for so long, still no results. Fine, i help her lah. She good customer. AIYOH. ANOTHER FIFTY? Why they so rich? Hmm, jia wei was smart, this is why we over price all our food. good smart. make us richer.

2009-04-10T06:50:00.000-07:00

Live Without Dead Time

2009-04-01T23:03:00.000-07:00

Sometimes we're so distracted by our ambitions, we blind ourselves to the moments we're living in now. Don't accumulate the dead time, live without it.

gargh.

2009-04-01T22:25:00.001-07:00

why can't I relax? Even with two weeks off, I can't do anything fulfilling without the thought of my workload looming over me. I mean, is this all there is to my life?!

Temporary Freedom

2009-03-28T03:40:00.000-07:00

Finally. We've been granted a minuscule moment of time. One short, millisecond of a pause from the overwhelming tide of IB. Without this break, I've no doubt we'd all have drowned under the deadlines by now.

Last night was a perfect example of the detriment IB is to our minds.

Relieved and happy at the end of school, we were all set out to celebrate with dinner and a movie. The irony of it all was, once we'd all sat down for dinner, we were too brain dead for lively conversation. We were reduced to blank stares at each other as we silently ate our food. It was all quite amusing actually. Luckily it didn't last long. Once we had our fill of jiao zis (cougheskorcough), we had enough energy to last throughout the night.

At 9, we met up with the rock climbers to watch what I think is one of the worst movies I've watched this year - Paul Blart Mall Cop. I laughed a total of 3 times in two hours. With a bland storyline and plain stupid slapstick jokes, it was excruciatingly predictable and painful to watch. I don't think I laugh very easily when it comes to movies.

On a lighter note, I'm starting yoga on monday and then I'll somehow find it within me to start my holiday homework.

hellish runs and heavenly finishes.

2009-03-20T04:33:00.000-07:00

It was the most strenuous, torturous period of my life. And I'm not kidding. I've never almost collapsed after a run before. At least before I could still stand. Before I could still walk after the run. After the first round, my legs were on fire and my chest felt like it was going to implode and I was thinking - "what's the point of running so hard, we're gonna lose anyway." then, "but they're all waiting for me. I don't want them to see me walking." On the way I saw eskor urging me on but I couldn't hear him because of my ipod. Then at the last stretch I saw sid cheering me on and I knew I couldn't bring myself to stop running in front of my teammates.

Then finally, finally I reached the end. I just felt like lying on the ground and breathing. My legs felt like blocks of lead. Everything felt so surreal but what helped the most was that everyone was there. I remember collapsing onto the floor (and juns laughing). I remember someone saying "don't sit down, you'll faint when you stand up" and then leaning on ernest and sid because I couldn't hold myself upright. (haha sorry guys!)

I remember everyone asking me if I was alright and congratulating me, although I didn't think I deserved it because I know I wasn't fast enough. They say you're supposed to feel accomplished, but I didn't. All I wanted was for my legs to thaw and for the nausea to go down. What made it worth it wasn't the accomplishment I was supposed to feel. It was knowing that people were there for me when I felt like collapsing. So thank you, all of you.

"study" period...

2009-03-10T03:20:00.001-07:00

You can't escape the camera forever chris! muahahah. (that's ernest's finger by the way)

sigh if only we could really crush him. hmmmm.

this reminds me of the friends episode - the one with ross's glow in the dark teeth.

very flattering, ernest.

9th march

2009-03-09T08:09:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY JUNS :)

2009-03-03T08:03:00.000-08:00

“She said, ‘I’m so afraid.’ And I said, ‘why?,’ and she said, ‘Because I’m so profoundly happy, Dr. Rasul. Happiness like this is frightening.’ I asked her why and she said, ‘They only let you be this happy if they’re preparing to take something from you,’ and I said, ‘Hush up, now. Enough of this silliness.’”

-The Kite Runner

2009-02-27T18:08:00.000-08:00

Show me the Bubbles!

2009-02-26T02:49:00.001-08:00

I've given you everything.

Why won't you give in already?

What more do you want.

I mean, I've given you sunlight and water.

I've practically drowned you in sodium bicarbonate.

BUBBLE already.

I have an urge to burn you when I'm done with you,

you stubborn dumbass of an elodea plant.

Dr Hjorth was right. Never in my life have I stared so long and hard at a plant. Bio practicals are so useless and time consuming.

I think I'm way too impatient to become a scientist.

no, life isn't literature.

2009-02-23T03:16:00.000-08:00

If life were a literary work,

We'd analyze every word spoken, every action taken.

We'd think about every move because everything would have to have meaning.

What if we over interpreted the subtle nuances of life, and we were wrong?

Life would just be an endless complication.

Just let things be, and everything will fall into place with time.

Kindergarten Never Ends.

2009-02-20T07:16:00.000-08:00

It's funny how the dynamics of friendship can change so erratically.

The Gruesome Threesome: Dynamics of Friendship Trios

When I was in grade five, I hung around with two close friends, Sophia and Diane. But it would be misleading to say we got along. Most often, it was two against one. On one occasion, Diane and I formed an alliance for two weeks, leaving Sophia on the sidelines at recess. Then Sophia and I got back together. To emphasize the point to Diane, I wrote her a nasty letter and put it in her locker. I still remember how it began: Dear Diane: I hate you. Sophia can’t stand to look at you...

Sooner or later, most children find their way into such threesomes — and into the drama and tears they spawn.

“Some triangles thrive and survive.” That said, Lynn and other experts acknowledge the triangle’s inherent vulnerability. Just what is it about three that brings out the monster in children? “The most basic human relationships — husband and wife, parent and child — involve two people,” says Wolkoff. “We’re wired for dyadic relationships. Adding a third person makes it 10 times harder to keep everybody happy.”

I want to thrive and survive.

Happy V Day. or not.

2009-02-15T02:02:00.000-08:00

shit. I'm sick again. Twice in a row.

I swear IB is killing my immune system.

Anyway, Valentines proved to be an..interesting experience.

It was very M18. And I'm not even referring to the movie.

Before the movie we took the lift up to the theatre, and we spotted this woman with her boob hanging out of her shirt. I mean seriously. If the shirt is too big/low-cut for you, DON'T wear it. Spare us the mental scarring please. So when we saw, we were either laughing in embarrassed pity for her, or cringing in horror. What I don't get is why her friend beside her didn't mention it.

Sigh.

AAAAAAHHH!

2009-02-06T16:59:00.000-08:00

THE STRAITS TIMES Feburary 7th 2009 Page D2.

"Tips to help your child sail through school

1) Don't fast track your child"

I was put into school a year earlier than I needed to be because I was born on the 1st of January.

I was fast tracked.

"Research shows that the youngest members of each cohort are less likely to go to university."

O.M.G.

A choice I never made could possibly have changed my life.

breeeeathe

evening dreams

2009-02-05T03:08:00.000-08:00

these twisted dreams that spin into seeming realities,

to diet or not to diet?

2009-01-30T18:54:00.001-08:00

I'm on a diet. or not. I'm just cutting down. Diets are overrated. They don't work unless you're sick. And if you're not sick and you're on a diet, then you'll just binge once your diet is over and you'll end up with a lower metabolism rate and more food in your body than before you started the diet.

My diet worked for the first week because I was sick so I wasn't hungry. But now that I'm getting better, I'm starving. I need to tweak my diet plan but would that mean my diet is failing?

I used to not eat lunch, but now, I'll just eat some lunch and some dinner. I mean, if i don't eat lunch, i'll probably binge during dinner anyway. Okay, I realize I sound like I'm trying to rationalize my breaking my diet. But really, it works better this way. It's not a diet, it's cutting down.

Actually, with the food in school in the sad state it is, it's not going to be hard not to eat lunch.

Now, just so I don't sound like some vapid narcissist in this post, I shall add a quote that I think makes alot of sense.

"The only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open."

- chuck palahniuk

Wallflower Friends

2009-01-23T23:45:00.000-08:00

Wallflower by Priscilla Anh

Do you see
Standing there in the corner
I was alone, I always am at these big parties
Watching you watching everybody
Wishing I was more outgoing
Wishing I was just a pretty wallflower

I'm not here, no one sees me, wallflower
I'm by myself, please excuse me

But there you were, standing in your own corner
Your eyes were wide, tired, fading just like mine
We could be the best of friends I'm sure of it
But I'm too shy to cross this crowded room besides

Wallflower
I'm not here, no one sees me, wallflower
I'm by myself, please excuse me

Help me leave this corner of the room
I'm reaching out to you
Cause I've got things I could talk to you about
We could be wallflower friends
To the end -- wallflower friends
To the end, I'm sure of it

Wallflowers
We're not here, no one sees us, wallflowers
We're together please excuse us

The Happiness Hypothesis

2009-01-19T02:29:00.001-08:00

hmm. so school's started. Nothing new has happened except for the fact that everyone's mourning the loss of our dear grade centre and my timetable is now alot less efficient. I could seriously live on a 4 day week.

So, everyone's been stressed doing IOPs, EEs, Econs Commentary's, Bio and History IAs..or not. Depends on whether you're a chris or a carmen. Either way, if you're a girl (or gay), here's a little something to help you de-stress:

Tv's hottest guys (in my opinion)

okay, no idea what his name is, but who cares?

Adam Gregory (!!!) from 90210. If it weren't for him, the show wouldn't be worth the watch.

Ed Westwick - GO BRITS!

okay, normally, robert pattinson wouldn't be here because I didn't used to think he was THAT hot..until he turned into Edward of course. So here's a tribute to EDWARD CULLEN. (yes. cringe, boys, cringe.)

Piz from Veronica Mars! (okay, i know nobody watches it but I have a soft spot for him.)

And who can forget, the guy every girl wants - as her gay best friend. Marc from Ugly Betty <3

MERRY CHRISTMAS

2008-12-22T07:33:00.000-08:00

Winter Wonderland - Jason Mraz!

I want to be a Cullen!

2008-12-19T22:16:00.000-08:00

I finally got down to watching Twilight with carmen and zhen yesterday.

It was no better or worse than I expected. I like how the entire movie was cast in this vampirish blue hue, it made everything seem so surreal. The best scene wasn't the hollywood cliche kissing scene or the gory bloody one, but the scene when they used their vampire abilities to play baseball. It was like the adrenaline injection the movie needed.

BUT. I think I would've enjoyed it more if there wasn't a congregation of girls behind us incessantly cooing over robert and swooning over gossip girl. I felt like smacking the girl behind me who kept squealing "kiss kiss kiss!" at all the wrong scenes.

Other than that, it was a pretty good show.

hong kong!

2008-12-17T08:43:00.000-08:00

I realize I haven't posted about hong kong. So here it is! Short and sweet. Mainly because I'm too lazy and the pictures on facebook kinda say it all. So here are some pictures that aren't on facebook.

Alcohol in our room at the W hotel. Thank goodness sarah didn't stay here :P

In the mall at The Venetian. This was next to a manmade river with gondola's floating in them. Then they charge you to ride in one while the person rowing the boat serenades you. Kinda lame actually, but the singing was good.

We stayed at The Venetian which my dad said was very OTT. I was like huh? what's OTT? And he went "over the top" in this very matter of fact tone, like i was supposed to know what it was. haha i swear it's weird how my dad knows more teen stuff than me. Like how he likes Gwen Stefani and watches Ugly Betty and Heroes.

Anyway, I went to hk with jinx and sarah and juns and we met up with yinto and roth! Then met up with my family when juns and sarah left. I don't have much to say about hong kong, except that i shopped, ate, go-karted, cable-carred and went on a few roller coasters. The rest is on facebook!

I want to be invincible.

2008-12-16T02:14:00.000-08:00

I used to believe in the power of words, but words bend emotions like sticks in water.

Think before you let your words entangle themselves into her thoughts. Because those words will lift her up. And when you leave, those words will disappear, and she'll fall.

rules. ugh.

2008-12-04T10:18:00.000-08:00

I went to the National Library with zhen and carmen today. We sat on the floor at a pillar with a powerpoint. Then zhen and carmen went to borrow all their intimidatingly thick hitler books and what not. So there I was, happily minding my own business and trying to access the wireless internet, when one of the million library people walking around with a walkie talkies (who I can only refer to as the "people in charge of making sure the excruciatingly annoying rules in the library are followed to the letter") came up to me.

library person : "Excuse me, can you move over there? (gestures in the general direction away from the pillar) You're blocking the way. The trolleys have to move through here."

me (looking around and seeing NO trolleys being rolled anywhere) : "err..okay."

So all of us moved to the student lounge on level 5. It was packed, so we sat outside, one person to a pillar with a powerpoint. And guess what? ANOTHER library person with a walkie talkie told us we "weren't allowed" to sit outside the lounge (even though we were totally at the side against a wall and not obstructing anything.)

Annoyed, we moved to level 7 at the reference library. And "library policy" says you can't go in with personal items. Yes, even your own books. So I couldn't even bring in my friggin This Earth of Mankind. We left.

I hate rules. Especially unnecessary ones. What's the point of having so many power points if people can't sit there? Those library policies need some serious rethinking. Or maybe this is just me being bitter.

I need to be somewhere.

2008-12-04T09:54:00.000-08:00

'Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?'
'That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,' said the Cat.
'I don't much care where --' said Alice.
'Then it doesn't matter which way you go,' said the Cat.
'--so long as I get somewhere,' Alice added as an explanation.

Lewis Carroll, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland

If there's one thing I can't stand,

it's hovering between two extremes.

I need to know where I should be.

I need to make a choice so I can live my life the way I want to.

2008-12-03T01:10:00.001-08:00

stop throwing me fishing lines and reel me in already.

2008

2008-11-29T19:43:00.000-08:00

Forever Young

Thinking back on this year, I would have to say, this is one of the best years of my life. Not because it was the happiest, but because I changed the most. I've been thrust into an entirely new environment which forced me to mature, whether I wanted to or not. Or maybe it's because I made some real friends this year, and they've done much more for me than I could've have asked for. When I felt most alone, you guys were there to pull me up. When I was happiest, you guys were there to share it with me.

Of course there were times when all I wanted to do was to go back, but I had no choice but to stick through it and I dare say I emerged a better person for it. If it weren't for my friends, I don't know where I'd be now.

To my friends, you know who you are, thank you.

flashes

2008-11-28T17:58:00.000-08:00

Jose singing LOVE on stage to a girl in a very mini skirt.

A red-faced Dr Underwood belting his lungs out to Santa Claus is Coming to Town.

VOLARE.

Jon Lee joke flirting.

Rachel's sparkly shoes.

Ian and Rachel & David and Benita dancing together.

Avinash in a garbage bag.

Ernest in a garbage bag.

Zhen being pushed onto the dance floor.

Ernest jumping from the stage and guitar solo-ing.

Dancing to LOW LOW LOW

Cabbing home with chris and matthew and jing qing.

Sleeping at 3.

Waking up at 11.

Ernest trying to cram a burger into his mouth.

Bowling with jinx and sarah and juns and ernest.

Car racing with sarah and winning by a second.

doggie paddle swim racing with sarah and ernest.

Walking SUPER FAR to chris's house with ernest.

Chris's dad asking me why chris seemed to be picking on me alot.

Foosball! shut up chris. I could have won.

Chris rushing me and jq to learn to play poker.

Zhen desperately trying to steal my chips using the gasp-what's-that-over-there method.

"I'm not going to fold. Because of avenged sevenfold!" the words of wang. yes, a part of me died.

Guitar hero 4!!

Matthew going crazy with the mike.

Yinto stoning at the tv at 1am.

Guitar battling with matthew.

Climbing over the gate to get to the cab.

blank.

light

2008-11-24T07:17:00.001-08:00

I'm not giving up.

I'm not on the thin wire anymore.

I've found solid ground.

don't crumble beneath me.

give up.

2008-11-23T01:36:00.000-08:00

I can choose.
I can choose to be sad, or I can choose to be happy.
I can harp over the loss, or I can find reprieve in what else I've gained.

I'm on a thin wire, and I'm falling towards the wrong side of the ground.

force yourself back to the right side.

my shallow form of catharsis.

2008-11-17T05:59:00.000-08:00

mary says: (9:12:16 PM)
i DID feel slightly happier when i saw patrick dempsey.
I stay and go: I am a pause. says: (9:12:29 PM)
ahahhaa see!
mary says: (9:12:37 PM)
i saved the picture
mary says: (9:12:41 PM)
i'm going to look at it when i'm sad.
I stay and go: I am a pause. says: (9:12:58 PM)
HAHAHA OMG ME TOO

what the world can do without

2008-11-03T04:48:00.000-08:00

We all know jose has a reputation for his inexplicably perfect english. Here's a glimpse of the catastrophe that would unfold if he decided to start speaking in Singlish.

Inopportune moments come but too many too many in a lifetime... says: (8:42:17 PM)

y0uuu sTtuuuup11d g1rLx lolxlxlx
Inopportune moments come but too many too many in a lifetime... says: (8:42:25 PM)
lolxzxzxz
mary says: (8:42:32 PM)
JOSE
mary says: (8:42:34 PM)
I'M CRINGING.
Inopportune moments come but too many too many in a lifetime... says: (8:42:47 PM)
I l1kez dat oso cAnn0T!
Inopportune moments come but too many too many in a lifetime... says: (8:42:55 PM)
h0w com aHH?
mary says: (8:43:00 PM)
i thought you were normal jose.
mary says: (8:43:03 PM)
i guess i was wrong
Inopportune moments come but too many too many in a lifetime... says: (8:43:53 PM)
lolxzxzxz
Inopportune moments come but too many too many in a lifetime... says: (8:43:59 PM)
maaybiii
Inopportune moments come but too many too many in a lifetime... says: (8:44:17 PM)
I cute cute or nooottt?
mary says: (8:44:34 PM)
oh yes, jose. just perfectly adorable.
mary says: (8:44:43 PM)
*note the sarcasm please*
Inopportune moments come but too many too many in a lifetime... says: (8:45:11 PM)
aiy00
Inopportune moments come but too many too many in a lifetime... says: (8:45:17 PM)
d0nt be so bAd laaa
Inopportune moments come but too many too many in a lifetime... says: (8:45:22 PM)
can onnot?
Inopportune moments come but too many too many in a lifetime... says: (8:45:33 PM)
hahaxzxz
Inopportune moments come but too many too many in a lifetime... says: (8:45:35 PM)
sianzz

Thank goodness Jose speaks english.

REVAMP.

2008-10-31T20:38:00.000-07:00

The SJIeye newspaper is stuck in sinking sand and nobody is trying to pull it back up.

I want to do something about it, but I'm afraid I won't have the energy to go through with it.

back.

2008-10-26T22:41:00.000-07:00

I miss my mg life.

I want to be bimbo and go crazy, even if it's just for a day.

simmering beneath the surface

2008-10-26T08:08:00.000-07:00

I realized something today. There are 2 kinds of people in this world. The kind that explode in your face when they're angry, and the kind that lets the anger simmer beneath the surface and looks pretty calm on the outside.

I'm the second kind. I only explode when the simmering anger begins to boil. I know its not healthy, but it gives the anger a chance to subside and preserve the friendship. Of course if the anger is being fueled, then it will turn into fury. And thus, the delayed explosion.

So when people seem amazingly calm to you, don't always trust what you see on the surface, because you're not seeing everything.

who are you?

2008-10-13T03:54:00.001-07:00

You are who you make yourself out to be.
You take bits and pieces of everyone who has ever had an impact on you,
You mould them together and
You make them your own.

It's something you have to do
because you don't want the world to see
the real you.

seachickens.

2008-09-14T03:23:00.000-07:00

Kid says: (6:09:37 PM)
omg mary
Kid says: (6:09:38 PM)
im so hungry
Kid says: (6:09:40 PM)
i want seafood.
Kid says: (6:09:45 PM)
and grilled chicken with honey
mary says: (6:09:58 PM)
grilled chicken with honey is not seafood chris.
Kid says: (6:10:09 PM)
oh
Kid says: (6:10:10 PM)
it isnt?
mary says: (6:10:21 PM)
NO CHRIS ITS NOT.
Kid says: (6:10:26 PM)
i was pretty sure it
Kid says: (6:10:27 PM)
was
Kid says: (6:10:28 PM)
damnit
Kid says: (6:10:32 PM)
MY MOM LIED TO ME AGAIN.
mary says: (6:10:42 PM)
is CHICKEN from the SEA?!
Kid says: (6:10:58 PM)
...seachickens are.
mary says: (6:11:24 PM)
whats a seachicken?
mary says: (6:11:29 PM)
you so made that up!
Kid says: (6:11:35 PM)
DID NOT.
Kid says: (6:11:37 PM)
THEY'RE FROM THE SEA.
Kid says: (6:11:42 PM)
THATS WHY THEY'RE SEACHICKENS
mary says: (6:12:42 PM)
OH REALLY?
mary says: (6:12:48 PM)
and what do seachickens eat?
Kid says: (6:13:06 PM)
uhm.
Kid says: (6:13:08 PM)
seaworms.
mary says: (6:13:25 PM)
HAHAH
Kid says: (6:13:32 PM)
what.
Kid says: (6:13:33 PM)
they do.
mary says: (6:13:55 PM)
indeed chris.
Kid says: (6:14:09 PM)
yes.
Kid says: (6:14:11 PM)
im glad you see.

ashes.

2008-09-10T08:39:00.000-07:00

"I've waited, and given the chance again,
I'd do it all the same, but either way
I'm always outplayed, up on your down days
I left it the right way, to start again

Now watch me rise up and leave all
the ashes you made out of me
When you said that we were wrong, life goes
on, just look how long I've agreed"

Home Cooked Pasta at Jinx's

2008-08-23T18:23:00.001-07:00

Yesterday morning I very reluctantly woke up at 6.45 and helped SAVH with their treasure hunt for the blind. (They were partnered with secondary school students.) It was rather monotonous but necessary. Honestly, I don't think the visually handicapped people really enjoyed it. The highlight of the day was when one of them played his guitar and sang "Beyond the Sea". He was so good that when Jose did his cover of "Tomorrow", he played along with his guitar, impromptu. i'm so jealousss.

When it FINALLY ended at 3, Juns and I went to Ngee Ann City to buy her a pair of school shoes. We ended up at the perfume and makeup section where we spent more than an hour of our time. lol. We're such bimbos.

At 5, zhen met us at ngee ann and we all went to Jinx's house to cook pasta! We went to Tanglin Mall (where we met up with chris) to buy ingredients first. It cost us a whopping $130 for everything but that's cos we bought salmon and alot of prawns and scallops. Pasta is actually surprisingly easy to make.

Quote juns - "i wish we had home economics lessons in school. The 5 of us could be the dream team!" lol. Here are some pictures i took with my phone. They're not very good but jinx's SLR was with ernest.

Juns, Zhen and Chris sliding the pasta onto a plate!

Fettucine with bacon strips soaked in cream sauce and egg. Garnished with italian parsley.

Prawn pasta made with fettucine, italian parsley and prawns & scallops cooked in cream sauce.

Enjoying our REALLY GREAT pasta! Not bad for our first try i think. But then again, its just pasta.

After dinner, Zhen left, Sam came over, and we played Iron Circle till 11 something. Iron circle rocks!!

my musings.

2008-08-15T05:18:00.000-07:00

Teenagers are the most dramatic people ever. I think its because we're still young. We want to believe the world is so much more exciting than it really is. Our only salvation from the realization that the real world is not as thrilling as we want it to be, is to create our own drama.
Everything that happens in school - all the gossip and all the scandal is so tiring. Sometimes i wish i lived in my own bubble of oblivious happiness.

P.S. this wasn't triggered by any dramatic event. Just all the drama that i've been through and heard of that has built up since i entered sjii.

SINGFEST08!

2008-08-08T17:42:00.000-07:00

before you start, ALL THE PHOTOS ARE TAKEN BY JINX.

okay,

Despite the heat and the crowds, this years singfest was one of the best performances i've ever seen, Zhen and i met brendan at plaza sing first, where brendan spent $15 trying to get some winnie the pooh in the arcade using the metal spider cling thing. After that amusing experience, zhen and i took a cab to Fort Canning where we spent about half an hour queuing and waiting for our tickets to be collected and the main gates to open.

When we finally got a place to sit, jinx was sitting a few metres away from us but we didn't know. So jinx decided to be all sneaky and take pictures of us. haha they're actually pretty good cos he was using his humongous SLR.

Jamie Scott came after Stacie Orrico. He looks sooo good in music videos but he's so short in real life :( Zhen says he looks like a hobbit and sadly, i have to agree. His performance was kind of dull, but i guess he can't help it because his songs are naturally soothing.
One republic followed. Everyone says they were pretty good and they were, but i think the other performances outshone theirs. Here's the lead singer splashing bottled water at the crowd because the weather was so hot.
Panic at the disco next! It was pretty sad because it was the only band that a experienced technical glitch. The mic wasn't working for one entire song but they kept on playing because i don't think they could hear the audience even when we were raising our arms and making "no sound" gestures.

All of us think ernest and the lead singer of panic and the disco look the same. Here's both of them on stage. Just look at the resemblance!! It's not just the hair and sunglasses, all their actions on stage are kinda the same as well haha.

Jason Mraz ROCKED. like seriously. He was the whole reason i paid $183 for my ticket and it was SO worth it. He got the whole audience having fun and singing along. And when he played I'm yours the ENTIRE audience was having fun. His ways of getting the whole audience moving and singing are so fresh, you can't help but have fun.

oooooh. Levi's fashion show. Too bad zhen and i went to get food to eat while jinx stayed with our stuff. Apparently the whole audience cheered like mad when they took off their shirts. sighh..i so should've stayed on. hahaha.
Pussycat Dolls! Plenty of eye candy for the guys now that the levi's models are gone. They have so much stamina but they did this creepy giggle thing for one of their songs and it made me cringe cos it sounded so bad.
Zhen was infatuated with this one cos he says she looks like a slutty version carrie underwood. tsk tsk zhen haha :P

Alicia Keys "no one" came second only to jason mraz's performance. It made a fantastic closing song, with everyone (even me, jinx and zhen) jumping up and down singing the "uh uh oh..." part at the end.

you make me smile.

2008-07-30T04:46:00.000-07:00

I was just surfing through www.edwardmonkton.com and i found these.

For Jinx. The most serene person i know.
For Juns. The first thing you do when you get back from school - go to the fridge.

For Sarah. Too bad they didn't have a drinking one :P

For Jose. Pig because you love to eat. And happiness because you're always smiling.

and Zhen, this is for you because this seems uncannily like one of those things you do when you doodle on my books or tard around like you always do.

Prive and Brown Sugar

2008-07-20T00:40:00.000-07:00

i went to Prive for sunday lunch today. The food was so gooood. We sat by the river (its near vivo and u can see the cable cars in the distance) so the ambiance was really relaxing. The best thing was that at least three quarters of the background music was on my ipod playlist. There was ingrid michaelson, imogen heap, colbie caillat and norah jones. Whoever chose the music has good taste.

Eggs Benedict! One of the best i've tried.

fluffy fruit pancakes :) my sister ordered that. for lunch. crazy right?

Wagyu burger! (my mum told me wagyu cows are fed beer and massaged. i want to be a wagyu cow.)

Chocolate milshake. It was okayy. Not as chocolatey as it could have been. I honestly don't see how it could have been labelled one of the best in singapore in the sunday times.

Hazelnut Praline

Chocolate mousse. Tasted like really soft chocolate haha.

Peanut Butter Crunch. Soft from the cake, creamy from the icing and crunchy from the peanut butter. Very rich, but very good.

Claire and i enjoying our desserts. As you can see, i only had a sliver of the peanut butter crunch. NOT the whole thing, so don't judge me!

My dad took all the pictures. He likes to bring his camera out every sunday and teach my sisters and i about things like the aperture and lighting. i think i'll try taking more pictures one day when i'm in the mood.

Yesterday i went out to watch Hell Boy and Dark Knight. Hell boy was so boring i almost fell asleep. Who cares about some huge lumbering red man with two stumps on his head pushing some gold monster/machine around. Zhen says the blue fish guy is gay. i like the blue fish guy. He speaks with a certain air.

Dark knight was alot more satisfying. It was so disturbing though. What length are you willing to go to for revenge? Would you take the lives of many just to save your own? The ending was sad but heroic. Batman is such a dark show.

After the movies i left to go to Brown Sugar for dinner with jinx, juns, eskor and ian. It was so funny. I laughed so hard, it hurt. I finally got to eat my favourite dessert ever - sticky date toffee pudding! haha juns liked it so much she had like 3/4 of mine. tsk tsk juns is such a piggg :P

I ate so much this weekend. i can't wait for tennis and rock climbing.

Margaritas and Mexican food

2008-07-13T04:55:00.000-07:00

I feel so healthy. This saturday i went to the gym and ran 3. smth km. That is ALOT for me. Then i surprise visited Jing xi and Sarah who were doing their homework in the area next to the sicc gym.

zhen came over in the evening and we went out for dinner at Cha Cha Cha. The enchiladas were yummy but there was too much chicken. Wish we ordered fajitas though. Every 10 minutes, a sizzling hot plate of beef came out of the kitchen and it smelled soo GOOD.

I love frozen margaritas.

After that we went to Cold Rock for ice cream.

Irish cream ice cream + White cookies and cream ice cream + mint slice + strawberries = BEST COMBO EVER

zhenhe! says: (8:31:13 PM)
your blog post is so vague.
zhenhe! says: (8:31:17 PM)
you should talk more about
zhenhe! says: (8:31:23 PM)
my awesomeness
zhenhe! says: (8:31:28 PM)
or how we got woozy haha.

my reaction - *rolls eyes* :P

Yes, we got woozy on half a glass of magarita (i know, we have a very low threshold for alcohol) and we were retarded all the way back :)

oh, and zhen is awesome.

HAPPY, ZHEN?

Where do we go now?

2008-07-13T04:06:00.000-07:00

once in while, I need to show my emo side.

2008-07-11T19:13:00.001-07:00

Keeping secrets is such a burden.

Don't tell me things if you don't have to.

I hate keeping things from people because it makes them feel like I don't trust them. If I don't tell you something, it's for the sake of the secret teller, not because I don't trust you.

morosely happy

2008-07-04T21:35:00.001-07:00

First week of school. Very tiring but fun. My sense of purpose has been restored.

Things have changed since the last term.

I'm so tired. I don't like shisha.

I'm quitting tennis. I just realized how much the instructor gets on my nerves.

I hate it when teachers patronize us and make us feel like kindergarten kids. Amusing but offensive.

i need a sign to reassure me that everything will be fine.

photography

2008-06-29T07:19:00.000-07:00

Playing around with my dad's slr around my neighbourhood! I've been meaning to start learning photography for ages but today I was finally in the mood to start.

2008-06-29T00:20:00.000-07:00

ifhwitayayl :)

Chris = Eskor?

2008-06-26T19:53:00.000-07:00

Don't you think Eskor looks a bit like Chris Brown?

2008-06-24T01:53:00.000-07:00

KATY PERRY :)

One of the Boys by Katy Perry

I saw a spider
I didn't scream.
Cause I can belch the alphabet
Just double dog dare me.
And I chose guitar over ballet.
And I tape these suckers down
Cause they just get in my way.

The way
you look at me
is kinda like a little sister.
You high five
your goodbyes.
And it leaves me nothing but blisters.

So I don't want to be one of the boys.
One of your guys.
Just give me a chance
to prove to you tonight.
That I just wanna be one of the girls.
Pretty in pearls.
Not one of the boys.

So over the summer something changed.
I started reading Seventeen
and shaving my legs.
And I study Lolita religously.
And I walked right in school
and caught you
staring at me.
Cause I know
what you know.
But now your gonna have to take a number.

Cuz I don't want to be one of the boys.
One of your guys.
Just give me a chance
to prove to you tonight
That I just wanna be a homecoming queen
Pin up poster dream
Not one of the boys.

I wanna be a flower
not a dirty weed.
I wanna smell like roses
not a baseball team.
And I swear maybe one day
Your gonna wanna make out
Make out, make out with me

For Berns!

2008-06-23T23:25:00.000-07:00

Quiz 5 :

If your lover betrayed you, how would you react?

I'd be shocked and hurt. Then I'd break up with him.

What will your dream holiday be like?

beach holiday/cruise with my best friends.

Are you confused about what lies ahead of you?

Isn't everyone?

What's your ideal lover like?

Fun, sweet, caring, funny, hot, confident, able to cook/bake/play an instrument and speaks well! but that only exists in an ideal world.

Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

Loving someone.

How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

Depends on what i'm waiting for him to do.

If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

Ignore my feelings and get over him.

Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?

Nope. HOLIDAYS ROCK.

What do you want most in life?

To make the most of every situation.

Is being tagged fun?

Depends on the quiz.

How do you see yourself in ten years time?

A successful journalist for the New York Times!

Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?

Single and rich! Single life isn't that bad,

What are one of those things you'd rather not do?

Get fat.

What kind of person do you think you are?

A happy one. Most of the time.

What do you define as a bad day?

When i don't achieve anything or enjoy it.

If you have to choose between love (as in boy-girl relationships) and friendship, what would it be?

Depends on who it is. I don't get this question.

camwhores.

2008-06-17T08:30:00.000-07:00

Carmen and Zhen came over to study today! haha we were supposed to do work but zhen just HAD to watch desperate housewives. Anyway, Carmen brought Cedric, (her camera. strange name, i know. Think Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire). Zhen said something about my house having a "rustic charm" then carmen suddenly exclaimed/squealed "RUSTIC CHARM!" and started taking pictures of my house. haha that was amusing.

Random shots while Carmen was playing around with Cedric :)

At Jose's Insistence...

2008-06-17T06:20:00.000-07:00

SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. Horror movies
2. Cockroaches
3. Losing my friends
4. Death
5. The future
6. My feelings
7. my dad's red faced stare down

SEVEN THINGS YOU LIKE THE MOST
1. spending time with my friends
2. conversation
3. listening to music and thinking
4. my tv shows
5. sleeping in
6. the satisfaction i get after learning something
7. sticky date toffee pudding

SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT YOU
1. i love dessert.
2. i hate walking to the bus stop from my house alone.
3. i like british accents.
4. i can't live without my ipod.
5. i like getting haircuts.
6. i prefer typing to smsing.
7. quizzes are tiring.

SEVEN THINGS YOU PLAN TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Travel the world
2. Find THE ONE
3. Read as many books as i can
4. Get married and have kids
5. Get to expert level on guitar hero
6. Feel contentment with my life
7. Get the most out of my education

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN DO
1. Play easy piano and guitar
2. guitar hero
3. kayak around pulau ubin! (haha still can't believe i did it)
4. listen to people's problems
5. say the lamest things
6. talk for hours
7. spend the whole day watching Friends

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN’T DO
1. think of 7 things i can't do.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.

SEVEN THINGS THAT ATTRACT YOU TO THE OPPOSITE SEX
this is going to be slightly shallow
1. a fun and understanding personality
2. nice eyes
3. smartness
4. dressing well
5. -
6. -
7.-

SEVEN THINGS YOU SAY THE MOST
1. Fiiiine
2. I DO NOT HAVE A DOUBLE CHIN!
3. Hmph!
4. Excuuuuse me.
5. I miss krabi.
6. Huh! (in an indignant way)
7. I do nooooot.

SEVEN CELEBRITY CRUSHES
1. Shia Labeouf
2. Chris Evans
3. Wentworth Miller (why, WHY did he have to be bi!!)
4. Ryan Gosling

tennis vs golf

2008-06-10T23:49:00.000-07:00

I just read an article on tennis vs golf and i really like this paragraph. It makes me miss tennis alot.

"There is only one moment in tennis when that game comes within shouting distance of golf. That moment occurs when your opponent, having been driven to the baseline by the fury of your return, takes a lunging, desperate swipe at the ball and catches just enough of it to lob it 50 feet into the air, a marshmallow, and the ball is spinning so slowly that you can see the seams on its cover, and it floats high above the net and drifts gently toward the farthest corner of your end of the court, and you instantaneously calculate its trajectory and drop back into the perfect position to smack it to oblivion, and all your options are spread out before you, and you can see your opponent shuffling nervously at the edge of your field of vision, and you know exactly what you want to do, and you set your feet and take your racquet back slowly, and the ball drops perfectly into the circumference of your swing--teed up, as it were--and you dump the thing into the net.

A golf moment. The only one in tennis. Case closed."

http://findarticles.com/p/articles/mi_m0HFI/is_10_50/ai_56068512/pg_1

Everyday is ice cream and chocolate cake

2008-06-06T08:15:00.000-07:00

Guitar hero 3!

haha chris didn't even realize when this picture was taken. He's gonna freak.

Sid looking solemnly at the scrabble pieces.

guess who?

Random post.

2008-06-05T19:11:00.000-07:00

jing xi is so obsessed with F1. haha he gets so defensive when we talk about cars, its amusing.

Jinx says: (10:02:12 AM)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8aArSn4IhHI&feature=related this is when renault won that year
Jinx says: (10:02:24 AM)
and this song is called god save the queen http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XRXwWbo_mX0
mary says: (10:03:06 AM)
hahaha omg so cool!
mary says: (10:04:43 AM)
the car is so cute
mary says: (10:04:47 AM)
reminds me of herbie
Jinx says: (10:05:04 AM)
haha the car is not cute!!!
Jinx says: (10:05:12 AM)
its a freaking F1!!!!!
mary says: (10:05:17 AM)
hahaha
mary says: (10:05:18 AM)
it isss
Jinx says: (10:05:23 AM)
its mean and ferocious

Sigh. i hate it when all my friends have to leave to go overseas and leave me in Singapore.
Today i'm going running for the first time in 2 weeks. Not sure if my ankle can take it though :(

i feel colourful.

2008-06-03T02:05:00.000-07:00

This morning i met carmen and zhen for breakfast at coffee bean. Can you believe i've never eaten there before? Anyway, after that we left to go shop at orchard. We found an extremely nice PREPPY outfit for zhen from Topman that really suits him. It's like this vest with a formal white shirt and a skinny red tie. Too bad it costs $200.

<-- Zhen needs this vest!

We saw Dr Hjorth at Topman but we were too embarrassed to say hi to him. So Zhen kept an eye out for him and carmen skillfully maneuvered her way past him while i followed suit. It's so strange seeing our teachers outside of school.

Then ian and rachel met us at wisma and we went to food republic where we met Jose. I realize its quite fun choosing clothes for guys! haha i wanna be a personal shopper when i grow up! We gave jose and zhen makeovers. Ian listened to our advice but chose his own clothes anyway haha.

Wei jin came later to go and buy a guitar with ian. Got back at 5 cos we were tired. Going to learn the rest of jing xi's korean song now.

I ate soo much!
1. double chocolate chip muffin (for breakfast)
2. ice kachang with brown sauce only
3. 2 octopus balls
4. 1 ice cream cone
5. 2 spicy mcnuggets

OMG. Going out is so fattening.

i want cute pajama bottoms from David and Goliath.

Dedicated to Sid

2008-06-02T09:19:00.000-07:00

Sid insists that i post this on my blog.

the indian on a mission says: (8:04:28 PM)
i will move to the right
mary says: (8:04:33 PM)
okay okay
the indian on a mission says: (8:04:34 PM)
then the left relaxes
mary says: (8:04:34 PM)
STOP
mary says: (8:04:38 PM)
good GOD
the indian on a mission says: (8:04:38 PM)
then i move to the left
the indian on a mission says: (8:04:42 PM)
and the right relaxes
mary says: (8:04:46 PM)
okay
mary says: (8:04:48 PM)
STOP
the indian on a mission says: (8:04:49 PM)
then i feel immediate pleasure
the indian on a mission says: (8:04:56 PM)
and then i ride the rest of the way back
mary says: (8:04:58 PM)
TMIGD
the indian on a mission says: (8:05:11 PM)
i had to stop and feel my buttcheeks to see if they were still there
mary says: (8:05:22 PM)
*suffocates and dies*
the indian on a mission says: (8:05:25 PM)
oh soryr, didn't see your messages, concentrating on the moment
mary says: (8:05:38 PM)
*remains dead*
the indian on a mission says: (8:05:50 PM)
*poke*
the indian on a mission says: (8:05:55 PM)
no movement
the indian on a mission says: (8:06:10 PM)
*crowds yell in triumph and happiness*
mary says: (8:06:19 PM)
______________________________
the indian on a mission says: (8:06:27 PM)
*pokes again*
the indian on a mission says: (8:06:33 PM)
IT'S OKAY! SHE'S STILL DEAD
the indian on a mission says: (8:06:52 PM)
*crowd lets out a sigh of relief and begins to build a prye*
the indian on a mission says: (8:06:57 PM)
pyre*
mary says: (8:07:04 PM)
I'M ALIVE
mary says: (8:07:05 PM)
ASS
the indian on a mission says: (8:07:19 PM)
ain't i funny in the spur of the moment
the indian on a mission says: (8:07:29 PM)
LOL

hahaha :P

Carmen's and Jessica's tag!

2008-06-01T05:12:00.000-07:00

Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Starting time: 8.14pm
Name: Mary
Sisters: 3
Brothers: 0 [i want an older brother :( ]
Shoe size: 6? why does this matter?
Height: 159cm last year. not sure abt now.

Where do you live: Singapore
Favourite drinks: chocolate milkshake
Favourite breakfast: french toast or fruit crepe or waffles
Have you ever been on a plane?: Yup.
Swam in the ocean: in krabi.
Fallen asleep at school: in economics.
Broken someone’s heart: don't think so.
Fell off your chair: uh no.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: never.
Saved e-mails: yes.

What is your room like: 2 bunk beds and 3 desks.
What’s right beside you: ipod, handphone, siddartha (the book), my sweater.
What is the last thing you ate: tortillinis.

Ever had chicken pox: Yep. In kindergarten.
Sore throat: Yes.
Stitches: yes. on my back. I still got the scar!
Broken nose: No.

Do you believe in love at first sight: no. lust maybe. haha.
Like picnics: yes! but only in cool countries.
Who was/were the last person/people you danced with: ally and vicky and patty and dee and bethy!
Last made you smile: juns and jing xi.
You last yelled at: eskor.

Today did you:
Talk to someone you like: i don't LIKE anyone.
Kissed anyone: no
Get sick: no
Miss someone: yes.
Eat: i'm not going to bother to answer.
Best feeling in the world: Love or Satisfaction.

Do you sleep with stuffed animals: yes.
What’s under your bed: a drawer of all my old junk.
Who do you really hate: selfish, mean, two-faced people. Nobody i know.
What time is it now?: 9.59pm

Random:
Is there a person who is on your mind now: yes.
Do you have any siblings: why is this question being repeated?
Do you want children: yes!
Do you smile often: very.
Do you like your hand-writing: don't really care?
Are your toe nails painted: no.
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: juns. I love her mattress and quilt!
What color shirt are you wearing now: black.
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: getting ready to go out for dinner.
I can’t wait till: university.
When did you cry last: last month.
Are you a friendly person: Yes. When i feel like it.
Do you have any pets: No :(
Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: Somewhere on this earth. Too bad i haven't met him yet.
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?: Yes. As a friend.
Do you sleep with the TV on?: no.
What are you doing right now?: trying to remember who i last really held hands with.
Have you ever crawled through a window?: Yes. In krabi when i had returned the key and wanted to shower in a nice bathroom.
Can you handle the truth?: Yes. Depending on how hard it hits me.
Are you too forgiving?: No.
Are you closer to your mother or father?: Both in different ways.
Who was the last person you cried in front of?: my parents?
How many people can you say you’ve really loved?: I love all my friends and family.
Do you eat healthy?: trying, trying.
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: Yes.
If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?: my music. my closest friends.
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: quiet. sjii brings out my loud side.
Are you confident?: Not particularly.

okay i deleted some of the lists like 5 things on my to do list today, places i've lived and jobs i've had. like who in the world cares.

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1. pushing away my vegetables
2. drawing
3. tricking little boys in my kindergarten
4. fighting with my sister
5. obsessing over wanting a dog.

5 desserts (its supposed to be snacks. but desserts are more fun.) I enjoy:
1. chocolate fondant from Beard Papa
2. ice cream crepe that my mum makes
3. sticky date toffee pudding from Brown Sugar
4. Ben and Jerry's chocolate fudge brownie
5. Chocolate Souffle from Bakerzin

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. Quit school. or maybe i'll just stop studying but keep going for fun.
2. hire a personal masseuse, chef and driver.
3. Travel around the world with my favourite people.
4. get myself a big house with a walk in wardrobe!
5. buy lots and lots of shoes. Or cars.

5 of my bad habits:
1. Procrastination
2. Being overly sensitive
3. Being too materialistic at times
4. No willpower whatsoever.
5. i say mean things.

5 people I tag:
1. Berns
2. Ian
3. Ben
4. Sarah
5. Matthew

i hate the dark.

2008-05-30T09:12:00.000-07:00

My foot hurts. Why are SOME of my friends so unsympathetic? They just laughed when i tripped on the stairs in the dark, dark cinema. pfft. haha oh well. i know deep down you all care :P

FINALLY the june holidays are here.

Yesterday after school i went for the ROCK CONCERT. I left half way but i think the grade 11s aka X-cess or XES did the best. They had more stage presence and were fun to watch. hahaha. or maybe i just think so because i know the band members.

Slither by the XES

Why so serious, Ian?

Gabby was good. as usual :)

OMG i wish i had an electric guitar!

XES live!

http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=xesband

Then juns and i left early to go for Little Women. All i can say is that we saw Mr Bennet kiss 2 of the women and jing xi was squirming in his seat. I just realised how some of the confessions of love in Little Women reflect real life situations - like what happens in school. I think all these teenage hormones are annoying. Life would be so much less stressful without them.

Zhen: "i want to fast forward to my future, instead of being stuck in a teenage suckfest."

Today was our last day of school! After school, sarah, jing xi, sid, eskor, ian, rachel, ernest, chris, zhen, jing qing and i went to see Prince Caspian. It was alot better than i expected. Yes juns, even better than Spiderwick! *Gasp* hahaha :)

We went into the wrong theatre at first (the one i sprained my ankle in). And all of us were so confused cos it felt like we were watching the movie at the half way point. Then we realised the person gave us the 4.30pm ticket instead of the 5.30pm one. But when we went to change cinema, sid and eskor were left behind! i feel so bad. Nobody realised they weren't following!
Then we had dinner at subway and then we arm wrestled. I beat jing xi's right arm!

I'm so annoyed now. I was supposed to meet my mg friends at wisma but my stupid ankle hindered me. Idiotic cinema stairs.

stop confusing me.

Dining in the dark!

2008-05-27T02:56:00.001-07:00

Today was interesting. It involved producing a literally last minute (as in we did it in class on the day of it) presentation for chinese, agreeing to audition for Sound of Music (!!) and eating fish and chips in the dark. Interesting because i've never done any of these things before. ever. I like my life this way - where the most unconventional things could happen.

I'm the sort of person who likes to prepare things beforehand. Especially if its a presentation. But i suppose the stupid chinese text was too tiring for me to bother to understand and my group members were just as lazy as i was to start on it, because we only managed to finish thinking about our chinese presentation DURING the class itself. It wasn't spectacular but it wasn't half bad. I blame all of us really. At least we managed a 5/7 :)

During lunch, Zhen, Carmen and I went to give Jose moral support for his Sound of Music auditions for Captain Von Trapp. I think he did better than Ayush (who auditioned at the same time) but their voices are different.

I cannot believe i agreed to audition for Sound of Music. It's not like me at all. I hope Zhen backs out so then i can too. I told him i'd audition if he did. I'm going to ask Mr V if i can sing in the back choir if there is one.

At 1.40, some of us went to SAVH to Dine in the Dark. We ate in a pitch black room and i had fish and chips with Chris, Charissa, Roth, Yin To and Juns. I just kept poking around my plate aimlessly until i stabbed something. The fish was surprisingly good but i kept losing track of the tartar sauce on my plate. And i was too afraid to pour too much juice into my cup.

Someone threw a fry at me, juns, charissa and roth in the dark. I have a weird feeling it was Charissa but i'll never know now haha!

I just read jose's blog. My expression when i read it --> -_-

Well, for my oh-so-boring life, I only saw Mary’s progress today on the road to becoming assertive. I think that she’s done incredibly well. Passed with flying colours, in other words. Hey, don’t look at me like that! Ian’s trained you well. You deserve a biscuit. =) Haha, just kidding Mary. But there has been a lot of change.

Ian didn't train me! I was always capable of being assertive, Jose. I just never bothered enough about the teasing to practice my assertiveness. humph.

Carnival!

2008-05-19T05:18:00.001-07:00

Yesterday at 2.30 i went to the carnival at school to help out. haha i feel so bad. Rachel did almost everything for manning the stall. She even did the guys stall when they all left. Anyway, i did a bit, then these guys gave us their left over tickets and i spent $4 getting my nails done by Kathy. Ever nail has a different design on it. haha its so ugly but cute.

Then when i got back from getting my nails done, i designed ernerst's arm. It's so pretty now!

FISH + LIPS = JING XI

IANPUBES (after his hair!)egg --> rubber duckie! haha ernest felt like being random.

I can't believe i didnt wanna go for the carnival. They're actually quite fun! Especially at the end when everyone starts giving out game prizes for free :P

DIE RD, DIE!

2008-05-14T05:35:00.000-07:00

This is what stupid math portfolios like RADIOMETRIC DATING are doing to us.

zhenhe! says: (8:29:19 PM)
jose
zhenhe! says: (8:29:20 PM)
my ally
zhenhe! says: (8:29:22 PM)
together
zhenhe! says: (8:29:26 PM)
we shall crush the enemy
zhenhe! says: (8:29:34 PM)
madness you say, mary?
zhenhe! says: (8:29:38 PM)
this is not madness
zhenhe! says: (8:29:44 PM)
this is SPAAAAAARRRTAAAAAAAAA!
English.. My Language.. Mandarin.. My Roots... French.. Ma Nouvelle Amour (Grammar courtesy of French expert=)) says: (8:29:58 PM)
SPAAAAARTTAAAAAAAAA
English.. My Language.. Mandarin.. My Roots... French.. Ma Nouvelle Amour (Grammar courtesy of French expert=)) says: (8:30:03 PM)
Mary! Join us!
zhenhe! says: (8:30:05 PM)
AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
zhenhe! says: (8:30:08 PM)
JOIN US IN BATTLE
zhenhe! says: (8:30:17 PM)
THE ENEMY MIGHT PROVE STRONG, BUT TOGETHER'
English.. My Language.. Mandarin.. My Roots... French.. Ma Nouvelle Amour (Grammar courtesy of French expert=)) says: (8:30:20 PM)
And we shall crush the stupid Greeks for their mathematical formulas!!!
zhenhe! says: (8:30:21 PM)
IF OUR AMRIES COMBINED
zhenhe! says: (8:30:37 PM)
THE ARMIES OF PERSIA AND ROME COMBINED WILL FALL TO THEIR KNEES
zhenhe! says: (8:30:44 PM)
IN OUR UNFLINCHING POWER
zhenhe! says: (8:30:52 PM)
AND THEN RADIOMETRIC SHALL NOT
zhenhe! says: (8:30:57 PM)
KNOW THE MEANING OF DEFEAT.
zhenhe! says: (8:31:39 PM)
I ENTER THE BATTLEFIELD
zhenhe! says: (8:31:43 PM)
WE
zhenhe! says: (8:31:45 PM)
AS ALLIES
English.. My Language.. Mandarin.. My Roots... French.. Ma Nouvelle Amour (Grammar courtesy of French expert=)) says: (8:31:45 PM)
I JOIN YOU
zhenhe! says: (8:31:55 PM)
SHALL UNITEDLY CRUSH THE ENEMY
zhenhe! says: (8:31:59 PM)
THEY SHALL FALL
zhenhe! says: (8:32:01 PM)
HARD.

I can't believe i know such drama queens. haha :P

RD is so REDUNDANT. I'm not learning ANYTHING. Sometimes i really miss the O level method of teaching math.

the world is moving slower.

2008-05-10T00:34:00.000-07:00

I love fridays! First we went to the com lab for bio, then during chem, sarah and i just talked cos everyone took so long to write out the solutions on the board haha and for english we watched the rest of passage to india! So technically, i didnt learn anything. i love lazy days like this, where i don't have to think so much and stress over the fact that i have to learn some new concept.

After that i had choir (we're singing Lion King and the beatles! :P). Zhen was so happy when he found out we were singing "Let it be" by the beatles that he screamed and sank to his knees. haha that was the happiest i'd ever seen anyone. Zhen is so amusing sometimes.

Then we had free period, where we were supposed to distribute the new issue of SJIeye but somebody said it would disrupt the lessons. haha i didnt really want to distribute them anyway. Then i went to wheelock place with eskor and juns to get some mac game. Then at coffee bean I got a free ice blended vanilla drink along with my chocolate shake cos the guy made vanilla instead of chocolate!) Then we went for rock climbing where i got a nice new pair of rock climbing shoes. After that ian, rachel and i went to holland v for dinner and we talked till like 10pm. haha such a tiring but fun day.

random thoughts
1. My new tennis instructor is waay too condescending. He shouts too much.
2. I think there is ALOT going on in school that very few realize is happening.
3. I'm really really glad i'm doing ib and not a levels. JC looks boring haha.
4. making lists is fun.

Ernest's Birthday lunch pics!

2008-05-04T06:50:00.000-07:00

I finally got the pics of ernest's birthday lunch! i'm putting the funny ones up :P the rest are on facebook!

i can't remember what we found so amusing haha.

2 thumbs up!

aww...

haha jose looks like he's struggling against committing suicide.

OMG. creepy guys. hahhaha.

sid looks ecstatic. must be the fact that SAM'S holding the camera. hahaha just kidding.